Sunday, 14 September 2008

Sunday, 17 August 2008

  • No xanga = no weight loss
    No xanga = weight gain

    I'm not sure how much I really weight will be able to tell tomorrow but its def 113ish...or a bit more??? I'm going on one soup per day meal... lots of water...... I'm so horrible....

Sunday, 13 July 2008

  • I've been on xanga mostly reading your blogs other then really posting my own! I would just like to say you all motivate me :) the more I am on here the better I do! I ate a yesterday then purged it then ate a lil more... I was afraid that since I ate again (and I wasnt planning to) it was gonna screw it up so I was praying I'll be 110 today and I am. I'm gonna either eat very little today or try a fast. Love you all mwa!

Friday, 11 July 2008

Thursday, 10 July 2008

  • I've been feeling like crap ever since I got that IUD but I will not get it removed. My body will adjust to it soon enough. I talked to my friends older brother who is a pharmasist and I told him my skins been going NUTS and all my symptoms and he told it's just a reaction to copper and a foreign object in my body (I've been feeling SUPER bloated and like I barely eat but my body still tries to either hold on to the weight or gain it). Today I'm feeling a little better about to go weight myself. For the last coupld of days it's been total misery looking at those numbers. Plus I've been FEELING like a total cow it's unexplainable how I fat I've been feeling. Wrote another midterm last night then went to see Wall E! SUCH an amazing  movie! I LOVE it!! Anyways I'm also finally getting my license on monday it's like 5 years overdue. Oki girlies love you all. Mwa!

Monday, 07 July 2008

  • In class can't concentrate! At all. I'm trying to be super positive (I watched that Secret.. its kinda of far fetched but I'm not taking any chances of attracting any more bad stuff) Just totally been so bumbed out! I dunno why my self control plummeted but its getting there! Today I only had soup and an egg! But wow I think I'm gonna mix two diet together. Atkins and low cal! Atkins did really work for me but I'm about 112.8 this morning but I feel like 140 and for some reason I LOOK 140?? Whyyyyyyy are so many girls who are my weight look SO much smaller?? :( I just don't get it! Whatever till 105 I'm not stopping. Only soup. I feel so fat I can't explain. My skins got bad too.. not like horrible but I always had really nice skin and for some reason my skins been dry and now its breaking out as well?? What the F? No I'm not pregnant I just checked last week cause I got an IUD inserted. For those who don't know what an IUD is... it's birth control but non hormonal and its inserted into your uterus for 5 years. Yes, not pleasant but much better then unexpected surprises. My bf has been great (as always)! We went to see Dirty Dancing last week the musical which was awesome! The seats were awesome! 5th row 150 a seat!

    I guess I'm gonna keep typing cause I can't pay attention in class regardless. I'm very scared to get my midterm back but *think positive* *think positive*?? I think I'm gonna go home and drink a tub of water. Like enough to feed the zoo so my skin clears up and so toxins come out.

    For the longest time cause I didnt have any self control I was to scared to come back to xanga. But xanga is the only thing that helps me with self control. I need this everyday or I loose track... But I'm willing to starve till 105. Cause IM SO FAT ITS INSANE! GAH!

Friday, 04 July 2008

Thursday, 26 June 2008

Friday, 13 June 2008

  • I'm slowly getting back on track... 110.6 today.. I already ate to much today which means I'm not eating anything till tonight cause my bf is taking me out to eat today after the theater. I already had some bread and some creme cheese which probably is like 350!! ALREADY! And it's only 1! No more. Gotta go buy a belt for my dress. I'm outies byee <3

Thursday, 12 June 2008

  • Haven't wrote in so long been so busy with the midterm and birthday! Everything! My weight jumps from 109 to 112.0 grr :( This week is like that cause I've ate so much on my Bday... So I've been trying to cut down. Today I only had a little bit of fish (120cal??) and peach(30cal) and one cookie(80cal) = appx 250.. I wanna stop at that for the day cause I gotta lose major pounds like asap. Yesterday I barely ate... I think like some fish and 2 bites of chocolate. I'm not really hungry right now anyways. Tomorrow me and my bf are going to the theater since I loveee all things cultural; it was his birthday present to me! :) Hes been super amazing!!! I made him cookies yesterday! I decided to post some pics from my bday but I'm gonna take them down sooon! I'm so shy :) Oki love you girlies mwa!

    Thats his name! :)